Natural Beauty

Today I am thankful for my natural beauty. I got it from my mom (no offense dad) But after living with 17ish different girls and seeing their daily routines I am so happy for my routine. I can wake up 30 minutes before I have to go and I'll look fine (maybe not great) I don't have to wear make up and I can still feel pretty. I don't have to blowdry my hair AND straighten it, or even blowdry it some days. It's just awesome to not have to deal with having to take 2 hours to get ready and have a long daily routine.

So thanks mom for not making me someone that always has to look perfect and wear makeup and have my hair fall just right to feel pretty.

It feels like Fathers Day today

In my Entrepreneurship class this semester we were just assigned to read this article http://steveblank.com/2009/06/18/epitaph-for-an-entrepreneur/ I'll be honest I skimmed it at first but I kept reading and I started crying... Yeah... kinda dumb and emotional right now apparently. But I was reading over his family rules and what he went through and it reminded me of my dad and what he did for our family when I was younger. My dad was the guy I saw on the weekends and talked to on the phone. He was the guy my mom would lock herself in the bathroom to talk to for what felt like hours on end. (Many funny stories about that) I remember greeting him at the stairs when he came home and always wanting to be the first to hug him. He gave up a lot for us kids when we were younger. He wasn't at all our recitals or practices and I know it was hard on him but I'm glad that I have him now. I love my dad he's amazing!

Catch Up

I don't know why I'm not good at keeping up on my blog but oh well just another time for catch up. (also I must be really tired because I just tried to spell catch katch...)

So I moved out of Megan's apartment because she got married. Yay her! So I moved into a house south east of campus and moved out 3 days later because the girls there had alcohol and cats and I didn't want to be around either of those so I moved back in with Megan for a few days (before she was married) and then I found an awesome apartment/townhome/condo south of campus off of 700 east. It's pretty great. It's big and I'm paying less than I've paid anywhere else. There are four girls here and 2 bedrooms, 3 bathrooms. It's called OakPointe. We have 2 living rooms W/D decent kitchen TONS of storage. So I mostly like living here.

I'm back at good ol' LDSBC... This semester is one of the more difficult ones I've had. English, Public Speaking, Entrepreneurship, BoM, and Mission Prep. It's not that the classes are more difficult, it's just that I have homework and I have to do it. I can't just pretend to do the reading or the homework anymore and still get good grades. The best part about school though is that Beth, Rob and Jourdan are there. It's nice having friends at school so I have people to hang out with on my breaks and carpool with, and make fun of people dancing in the commons with. The best change about LDSBC this year is they now have a dance class Tues/Thurs from 130-? (at least 5) They have Latin Dance and HipHop, they used to have Swing but I haven't seen it lately. It's incredibly funny to watch. I am not a great dancer so props to them for having the guts to bust a move in front of half the student body but still... it's very entertaining watching little white girls that grew up doing ballet try to HipHop dance. One day I'll take a video and post it, that's how funny it is.

The most exciting recent news is Kurt is home! Kurt is my friend from Oregon that moved to Lindon and then got his mission call to Oregon. (I'm bad luck for my friends, first Kurt got his Oregon call then Garret got his Provo call...oops) I went to Kurt's homecoming last weekend and it was really cool to hear him speak and see how different he is. I haven't been able to see him much because of school and work but it's exciting to have another friend back. Only 2 more months before Garret is back and 4 until Jeremy is back!

Other than that life is the same, I'm working and going to school then working and going to school then working then having a day to rest then working then going to school blah blah.

Is there anything to talk about other than dating?!

So I live in Provo, the dating mecca. Seriously everyone here is concerned about their dating lives and who is and isn't going on dates. There is more to life than dating! I know that right now we are told we're supposed to be going on dates and fulfilling that part of our lives but seriously? You want me to focus on dating while I'm trying to juggle my work and school schedule... haha that's funny! It seems like all of my conversations with people lately have been on dating. Why can't we talk about something else. I know we don't want to talk about school when we are dealing with it for 11 hours a day. I know I don't want to elaborate on the life of being a receptionist but can we talk about our hobbies. I know people play sports (maybe not me but people do... I'm sure) At dinner group we were talking about dating, then again on the drive home from school today. Two totally different groups the SAME subject. We get it enough from our parents and teachers and church leaders we don't need the pressure from our friends and peers too.

Everyone has their own beliefs on how to play the game or not play it but there is no set way of dating here in Provo. Wouldn't it be nice if everyone dated in the same ways, especially if there was no game? that would be amazing right? I wonder if dating outside of the bubble sucks as bad as it does here. You have to text 15-30 minutes after the date to make sure he knows you enjoyed your date and he knows you're interested and want to go on another. Or for some even if you don't text after the date he's still going to assume you want to go on more dates with him and keep asking.

Honestly I'm so sick of the game. I don't think dating should be viewed as a game. You don't want to find your eternal companion by playing mind tricks with them. What does that mean the rest of your relationship will be like if you are constantly pretending to not be interested in the beginning so he'll call you faster, or if you say you're busy one night but not another so you don't come off too easy. Be upfront with your feelings and opinions. Don't hide who you really are just to play some stupid game.

What now?

Can someone please just tell me what to do with my life?

Current options are:

Go to UVU and study: culinary, psychology, music, ANYTHING

Mission

Move to another school

Move to Salt Lake and continue at LDSBC in a new atmosphere

Find a new job

I am at a loss for life right now. I've been praying studying my PB but I have nothing. I don't know what I want to do or anything. I'm meeting with my bishop soon to talk about the mission option but honestly it scares the crap out of me to be away from Lauren.

Stadium of Fire x2

This past weekend I had the wonderful opportunity to go to Stadium of fire with some of my friends. I really wasn't that excited for it because I'm not crazy obsessed with David Archuleta (anymore) and I really had no idea who Brad Paisley was (but afterwords I realized one of the few country songs I enjoy is a Brad Paisley song...it's called "then")

ANYWAY

So we (Jamie, Kyle and I) went to Jamie's house for a BBQ with her lovely family. It was quite a blast. So funny we laughed more than we ate. Then we drove back to good ol' Provo and walked from Branbury to Stadium of Fire. We took quite some time finding our seats (that's what happens when you have directionally challenged people leading) but we made it there and we enjoyed some David and Brad.

After, we didn't want to deal with traffic so we stayed for the Dance Party. That was where the real fun began. It was exciting. I saw some friends from Raintree and partied with them. Then our night was over and Kyle was brought home. Overall a great day and a wonderful night.

Somewhere, my parent's theme song.

The show started with Katy Perry

A different themed rant

So...I often complain about how being single sucks when you're living in Provo and how EVERYONE else is dating and I'm alone woe is me blah blah blah. But lately I've been okay with being single. It's not that big a deal. Yeah I don't have anyone to cuddle up to and be all lovey with but I'm good. I have friends that I can hang out with and spend time with. We have fun and enjoy life. And I know this is so hypocritical BUT I am so tired of EVERY singles ward Relief Society. They always complain about how being single sucks and how they're so old and they just need to be married already and move on with their lives. Just because you're single doesn't mean you have to stand still and not progress in your life. Finally someone said something today that helped with the "I'm 19 and single" crap. She pointed out that we live in the Provo bubble and that in the world outside of the bubble it's okay to be 21 and single. That's your prime! You should still be single...they feel bad for the people that are 19 and married. I think it's okay to want to be with someone but you don't have to constantly turn every lesson in church to "I'm not married so my life sucks" You're life can be great if you make it great you just have to let it be.

That's all....just a rant.

:-)