Hair Color

As many of you know I colored my hair for the first time a couple months ago. It was terrifying but I ended up loving it. Now the roots have grown out and I'm trying to decide what to go with next...

I understand most of these are of Jennifer Aniston...but seriously she's the most beautiful person ever and she has great hair.

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This one I like the middle.

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Ode to friends

The Twins and Liz

Rachel, Sarah and I were kinda thrown together... Basically her mom forced us to be friends. But it all turned out okay. We met before 6th grade in primary and we were best friends throughout Middle School and our days in the "diamond house." Then high school came and we grew apart because we went to different schools and we just liked different things. Then Sarah came here for school and we hung out quite often Freshman year. Then Sophomore year not so much. Now we're friends again and we try to hang out more than we used to because even though it's not as convenient to see each other it's always a fun special treat :-) And Rachel is only 4 hours away! It's nice that I have these girls as friends even after our 4 year lull... Which I take full blame for... I wasn't a very good person in high school and that's totally my fault...

JHack

Oh JHack...What is there to no love about Jessica? She's awesome. We met freshman year in 9th grade English. We weren't really close though until sophomore year. We had this super creeper student teacher that would hit on the 4 girls in that class. Oh what a creep...maybe he's the reason I don't like black people much... it is in my blood. haha. But JHack and I became really good friends and we had TONS of girl drama but we are still best friends and it's so nice that she's always just a text away. Love her!

Lauren and Mom

What isn't great about these two? They're like the dynamic duo! Mom is Wonder Woman and Lauren is Wonder Woman Jr... They're there to talk and listen to me complain about my life and they try to fix it. Even when I don't want them to fix it. Our trip to Miami was quite possibly the best trip of my life. We grew so much closer. Lauren me and Mom...good times together. It was so nice to be able to see the relaxed not so crazy side of mom... I really want to do that again... a relaxed mom is MUCH better than high strung crazy mom. Basically if you don't have a therapist that worked in Woman's Services as a sister your life is gonna suck! Lauren is so great she sees both sides AND she knows me so it's just awesome.

And finally....

My Daddy!

Have you ever met someone who has survived a car accident as bad as his? I doubt it. He is awesome and basically as super as my mom. Yes he has his faults and he can't run and play with us but he wishes he could and he will push himself to the limit to spend time with us. He tries to pretend he's fine just so he can do things with us (yeah he's bad at faking it) He calls me just to say I love you. He sends texts to say I love you (yeah my dad texts) He is such an amazing man. He tries everything he can to help our family and with all the things working against him I'd say that's quite amazing. He is the priesthood holder of our family and I am grateful I have had a worthy priesthood holder as my father. He gives great advice too and he's always there to talk to.

These people have always been there for me and I am so grateful they have been. I don't know where I'd be without them! I love them all and I just wanted them to know how much they really do mean to me. Even when I'm constantly complaining about my life, they are still there.

I love you guys!

Just Another Rant

So yesterday I was walking to my car from church in intense beautiful heels and I was super nervous because 1. I stopped wearing heels after my knee started hurting, 2. It was raining, 3. These were extra high heels, 4. I'm just always nervous in them. So I was nervous and I was about 10 feet from my car when I stepped on a pebble and that was the end of my standing. I fell on the ground. It was mighty painful but thankfully I didn't actually cut anything by my ankle (from the zipper on my shoe not the ground.) It wasn't any major falling, I went down quite gracefully actually but I still went down. Ten steps from my was a guy. Oh for the record I was on BYU campus where the guys are supposed to be "helpful, thrifty, brave" something like that. But he didn't' even ask if I was okay or come to help me. Awesome, also he works at the help desk at the mall, so no big deal I knew him. So I was fine, sore but fine. So I got home and I was thinking...was it just me that he wouldn't help or does he not help anyone? Is he just the guy that won't be the knight in shining armor? Either way he's rude. Not a fan of him anymore. Also my back hurts really bad and my wrists are popping excessively.

In other rants, apparently I'm a pansy because I hurt from that... but if you were to complain about anything it's okay. UGH!

Also in other news, I got into Utah State up in Logan...but do I want to go there? I hate life right now for the record.

OH also... apparently I have a two date limit, after 2 dates guys don't like me anymore...no big deal.

Random thoughts thrown into one.

So...every girl that isn't dating hates dating. They hate being alone, not having someone to constantly whine to, cuddle with...pretty much they just hate life. But I think what's worse than dating might be having a crush. Boys are really good at leading you on. ESPECIALLY Provo boys. I'm sure girls do it too and shame on them but seriously you can't hold a girls hand, kiss her, pretty much do anything she'll read into with out actually liking her. I hate being twitterpated. I hate waiting for my phone to ring and hoping it's that special guy. I hate constantly wanting to text him but being told from EVERYONE not too. I hate that I have to play the game or he'll get bored. I can't just be like "dude I like you." I have to flirt one time and be rude the next flirt again and act like he doesn't exist the next. Do you get how stupid the dating game is? Everyone hates rejection so that just makes us not want to like guys...Sometimes you get really good at it then that one guy comes along that is just a little different than all the others and intrigues you a little bit more. Yeah, then you have an issue. Then you decide to put yourself out there but you can't do it all. And that is what I hate about dating. I can't control where the relationship will go, how long we'll date, when things will happen anything I can't control that part of my life. It sucks for someone that likes to know what is going on, not okay with surprises...control freak... not to an extreme though...

That's all just wanted to rant about something stupid....but isn't that what I always use my blog for?

Music.

I love her voice and I've listened to this song at least 20 times over the past two days... I also love the dancing in the music video...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8v_4O44sfjM

Typical Utah Girl Complaints

So I'm super hesitant to write this because I know I'm going to get the typical advice and answers but sometimes I just want to write what I'm thinking out, I mean isn't that what a blog is for? So you may give your opinion on my situation, however if you say "the time will come" "it will happen" or any of the cliché things I may just ignore that and pretend you didn't say it...

Living in Utah I deal with friends getting married, engaged, pregnant all the time and being a girl I feel like I'm the only one that isn't. When I know very well that I am not. I have a roommate who isn't dating, or engaged and for sure not pregnant...well maybe not for sure...kidding. But sometimes I feel like it just gets to you. When all your friends are sending you pictures of their dresses, their rings, asking your advice, flaunting their engagement, counting the days. Of course I'm happy for them, I'm happy they're happy and they're getting their fairy tale ending but sometimes I just want an end to it all. I mean once people get engaged I delete them from my news feed so I can't see their ridiculous count down "89 days until I'm married." That is dumb (yes I bet I do it if/when I am engaged, but let me just complain for now.) You're getting married in 89 days, does anyone but you and your fiancée care? probably not... Maybe once it gets down to 5 or maybe even 30 I might care. I'm not saying I hate you if you do that I'm just saying I just don't really read your status or go to your page very often because I don't care to be reminded of my loneliness.

I'm already bitter about my situation and I'm only TWENTY. What happens if I don't get married for a few more years? Will I accept the fact that I'm not supposed to be married yet and that it's EVERYONE else's turn before mine? I don't think I can go through life without a companion. Thinking about people I know who have never been married and they're in the 50's just amazes me how they could live their lives without someone by their side. I could not do that. I really hope that is not one of the trials God wants me to have...

I'm tired of being alone and sitting around doing nothing on the weekend. I can only watch so many things on Netflix. I just want to go on a date and enjoy myself. I've been asked on two dates the whole time I've lived in Utah...TWO. Kinda sucks. Then I see the people that get asked on dates by guys they don't even want to go out with and the ones that get asked by the guys they do want to go out with and the girls that get asked out by every guy and I just feel like sometimes I want it to be my turn. I want to have a reason to actually get ready in the morning (because we all know I do not get ready for work any day of the week) I want to have something to look forward to on the weekend, not just not having to work. It'd just be nice sometime... But if it doesn't happen I guess I'll just learn to be content and live with the way life is.

Boy Crazy???

So usually I'm not boy crazy but occasionally I can be... and apparently right now is one of those times. Jamie and I spent the day together and we were just talking about things that would be so fun to do and then we decided they'd be way more fun to do with boyfriends... too bad neither of us have one... But that's just a goal...to one day get boyfriends...

"Things To Do With Our (Tentative) Boyfriends This Summer"

(Or alone if the whole boy thing doesn't work out for us....)

1. Snowbird Day- All Day Pass

2. Hike Bridal Veil Falls

3. Go to Dairy Keen

4. Hike Stuart Falls

5. Road Trip to California Coast

6. Go to Jamie's Cabin

7.Complete Kissing List (It's a list Jourdan and I made last year when I was boy crazy...about the same time...huh maybe it's just the winter)

8. Go Boating

9. Sing "Stargazing" Together (By Double or Nothing)

10. Go to Lagoon

11. Go to 7 Peaks

12. Squaw Peak (To look at the pretties not to kiss....maybe a little ha kidding) <--Give us a break we were driving through the canyon

13. Go Shooting

Kissing List

Remember this was made when I was tired...and it's just funny...not too serious...okay maybe a little.

1. Under Mistletoe

2. Elevator

3. Staircase

4. In the snow

5. In the rain

6. In a hot tub

7. Tire swing

8. Closet

9. Beach at night

10. Standing in the middle of the road

11. Sitting on the counter

12. Sitting on a desk

13. In a swivel chair

14. Love Sac

15. Sitting on the trunk of a car

16. Temple Square

17. In the fountain at Gateway

18. New Years Midnight

19. Under a waterfall

20. On a boat

21. Underwater

22. On a balcony

23. On a horse

24. Upside down

25. On a pool table

26. Under fireworks (harder for me since I'm afraid of them...)